Party Over!

The Pity Party's over!  Thanks for attending.  Seriously, it did me a lot of good to read your comments and know that people really do care.  In my vanilla life, I haven't talked to anyone but Lash about what's going on and it's too easy to get self-involved and depressed when I don't talk about things.  Writing about it gets it out so that I can look at it objectively.  


Spankings did me a lot of good when I was tense, nervous and anxious about everything.  I had a couple of really good "weeps" and Lash doesn't let me get too far out of line with my rebellion against medical orders.  I can get very stubborn when I want to resist something, but after a while I turn the stubbornness into determination and use it to stick to my diet, exercise and health plan.  Sometimes I need a reality check from Lash to know when it's time to make that switch!  Right now, one big drawback is that Lash feels like he's coming down with a cold and, since I can't do the sleep test if I can't breathe through my nose, he's avoiding me - no hugs, no spankings.  He even is sleeping in the guest room for a few nights.  I hope it turns out to be just allergies.  I miss my man!!


We spent last weekend, all three days, with our daughters, son-in-law and grandson and it was so fun!  Our grandson is 20 months old and can reach doorknobs but not turn them.  He wanted us to open them for him and threw a fit when we said "no".  But he's also discovered a new word - stuck.  So now, every door that won't open is "stuck" and he's just fine with that.  In fact, if a door is open he wants to make it "stuck".  Not a temper tantrum all weekend since he learned this new concept!  Language skills to the rescue!  I feel like I'm coming "unstuck", so maybe a new word will help me get back to normal, too!